Collections and Families

My collection is almost finished, I just have a little more work to do - a few small edits, plus a couple of poems to take out and a new sequence to insert. It feels very scary at this point. I have put in so much work - it will be hard if it gets rejected. I am being realistic about it of course. I know that not much new poetry gets published, and that for every new book a publisher takes on there will be dozens of equally good books that don't make it into print. Add to this the fact that Salt recently announced that they are no longer going to be publishing work by new poets and the chances of a book seem very slim indeed!

However, despite this, I keep on writing. I am currently working on a new sequence. The sequence features a kind of mythological family, but is set in modern times. The sequence revolves around the misogynistic father character who is called Sun Daddy. I have long been interested in the dynamics of families, the different types of family dysfunction, the ways that families handle (or don't handle) pain - the way they bury it, share it around, pass it on.

Family is of course as old as history itself, but the modern family is a much more recent construct. It is often disconnected from the wider family support networks that were relied on (for better or worse) in previous times. The modern family is often an insular, disconnected, and often alienated beast, without the safety net of the family network or organised religion to fall back on in times of hardship. We are an increasingly mobile society, so it is little surprise that the modern family unit is often located geographically far from parents, siblings, and home town. Given this lack of unconditional support it is hardly surprising that families make sometimes make up rituals, rules and coping mechanisms all of their own.

Walking the Line

Finding the work/writing balance is something that many writers have written about and for many of us it continues to be a struggle. It can be especially hard when your paid work uses up much of your creative energy. I am in just such a predicament at the moment; trying to balance copy writing, teaching and other freelance work alongside finishing my poetry collection and trying to generate new work. It's not easy I can tell you. At the moment paid work is winning the battle.  I know this has to change though - I am not happy when I am not working on my writing.

Journals etc.

Just looked at my last two blog posts and realised that I have failed hopelessly in my mission to post a fragment of writing every day. I have however been endeavouring to write morning pages, and I am managing to keep up a visual diary - although I am not managing to do it every single day.

This week I have been reading Claiming breath by Diane Glancy which is a book of prose poems written over the course of one year. During this year Glancy's mother dies and also her house is broken into several times. Although these are important themes in the book, the over riding theme is that of the writing process and the idea of self and identity - and ultimately how all these things fit together. It is a fascinating and inspiring book, moving between prose proper and more experimental poems where Glancy plays with the form and with language itself.

It made me think that I would like to keep some kind of poetic journal myself, and seeing as it is my birthday this weekend - that seems like an ideal time to start. I will keep the journal for myself - but I am hoping that something good - some poems, or some kind of personal insight might come out of it.

On other matters Anna De Vaul and I are editing the next issue of Lighthouse - something that I am looking forward to and feeling nervous about in equal measure.

Blind Pen Portrait

the mirror reflects a self
unrelated to the one
who parties on the inside

Resolutions and Bits of Poems

I am doing well with my new year's resolutions. I have sent some work out - not much - but some. I have been doing my morning pages most days and I have started a visual diary too. I started the visual diary for two reasons: 1) I miss making art, and 2) I want to see if it enhances my writing. More creative stuff has got to be good right? I have also been trying to put whole days aside to work on my poetry, although I think it would be useful if someone confiscated my broadband modem on those days!

Today I had the bright idea of writing a small poem about writing every day and posting it on my blog - well realistically it won't be every day, but a girl can try...

Here is today's effort:


Memory fragments -
the way smells can take you back
and fill your head with words.

Creative Block

I once read an article that claimed that there was no such thing as creative block. At the time I wasn't sure how I felt about what the author was saying - I certainly experience times where I am less creative. Often these times correlate with other stuff that is going on in my life - I might be stressed, busy with work or preoccupied with something with that take up all my creative energy. I also have times of extended procrastination - sometimes I think that during these times my brain is working silently away on something. Before Christmas for instance I was thinking a lot about the order of my collection, it took up a large amount of my creative energy until I came up with a new order. Now I know that I need to re-order it again, and what is more I also need to produce some new work - but since I was ill over Christmas my creative juices seem to have dried up.  I have experienced these creative deserts before - sometimes even reading favourite or new authors isn't enough to inspire me. I know it will pass - the worrying thing is that I have a deadline to work to. I find myself longing for another writing retreat in Wells...

BOOKS READ IN 2012

111) Maybe This Time - Alois Hotschning (fiction)

110) Search Procedures - Erin Moure (poetry)

109) Carrying My Wife - Moniza Alvi (poetry, re-read)

108) The Storm House - Tim Liardet (poetry, re-read)

107) The Bridle _ Meryl Pugh (poetry)

106) Stag's Leap - Sharon Olds (poetry)

105) Swimming Home - Deborah Levy (fiction)

104) Open Door - Oscar Guardiola-Rivera (fiction)

103) Portrait of My Lover as a Horse - Selima Hill (poetry)

102) The BBC International Short Story Competition 2012 (fiction, short stories)

101) Cosmic Ordering for Beginners - Barbel Mohr and Clemens Maria Mohr (non fiction)

100) Unleash Your Creativity - : Secrets of Creative Genius (52 Brilliant Ideas) - Rob Bevan and Tim Wright (non fiction)

99) Spider Bones - Kathy Reichs (fiction)

98) Little Gods - Jacob Polley (poetry)

97) Burying the Wren - Deryn Rees-Jones (poetry)

96) Stone in a Landslide - Maria Barbel (fiction)

95) Beside the Sea - Veronique Olmi (fiction)

94) The Beautiful Indifference - Sarah Hall (fiction, short stories)

93) Pelt - Sarah Jackson (poetry)

92) Nameless Earth - Robert Gray (poetry)

91) Swift - Jennie Feldman (poetry)

90) The Book of Blood - Vicki Feaver (poetry)

89) A Little Book of Meat - Selima Hil (poetry)

88) Lunar Moths - Jo Haslam (poetry)

87) 81 Austerities - Sam Riviere (poetry)

86) The Polish Boxer - Eduardo Halfon (fiction)

85) Recyclopedia: Trimmings, S*PeRM**K*T, and Muse & Drudge - Harryette Mullen (poetry)

84) These Days - Leontia Flynn (poetry)

83) Tender Buttons - Gertrude Stein (prose/poetry)

82) Cobweb Walking - Sara Banerji (fiction)

81) Arguing with Malarchy - Carola Luther (poetry)

80) Clueless Dogs - Rhian Edwards (poetry)

79) Grace - Esther Morgan (poetry)

78) The Underground Man - Mick Jackson (fiction)

77) Wild Abandon - Joe Dunthorne (fiction)

76) Profit and Loss - Leontia Flynn (poetry)

75) Fall - Amy Newman (poetry)

74) For the Good of the Earth and Sun Teaching Poetry - Georgia Heard (non fiction)

73) Misadventure - Richard Meier (poetry)

72) That Awkward Age - Roger McGough (poetry)

71) A Light Song of Light - Kei Miller (poetry)

70) The Keys of Babylon - Robert Minhinnick (fiction, short stories)

69) 26a - Diana Evans (fiction)

68) Maggot - Paul Muldoon (poetry)

67) The Wasteland and Other Poems - T.S. Eliot (poetry - re-read)

66) Ramshackle - Elizabeth Reeder (fiction)

65) The Opposite of Falling - Jennie Rooney (fiction)

64) Occupation - Angela France (poetry)

63) Down the Rabbit Hole -Juan Pablo Villalobos (fiction)

62) Jack Straw's Castle - Thom Gunn (poetry)

61) Salt Rain - Sarah Armstrong (fiction)

60) Jo Shapcott - Tender Taxes (poetry)

59) Jo Shapcott - Phrase Book (poetry)

58) Jo Shapcott - Electroplating the Baby (poetry)

57) Best American Poetry 1997 - edited by James Tate (poetry)

56) Broken Things - Padrika Tarrant (Fiction - short stories)

55) Of Mutability - Jo Shapcott (poetry - re-read)

54) Best American Poetry 1992 - edited by Charles Simic (poetry)

53) The Water Babies - Charles Kingsley (fiction)

52) The Last Falcon and Small Ordinance - Paul Perry (poetry)

51) It's Not How Good You Are, It's How Good You Want to Be - Paul Arden (non fiction)

50) London Bridge - Simon Smith (poetry)

49) Anvil New Poets 2 (poetry)

48) Peter Pan - J.M. Barrie (fiction)

47) Waffles - Matthew Welton (poetry)

46) Before I go to Sleep - S.J. Watson (fiction)

45) Legato the Ju-Ju's Cure - Simon Parsons (poetry)

44) The Departure - Chris Hamilton Emery (poetry)

43) All That I Am - Anna Funder (fiction)

42) Glad of These Times - Helen Dunmore (poetry)

41) A Bowl of Warm Air - Moniza Alvi (poetry)

40) Robinson Crusoe - Daniel Defoe (fiction)

39) Carrying Rain - Karen Dennison (poetry)

38) Carrying My Wife - Moniza Alvi (poetry)

37) Sidereal - Rachael Boast (poetry)

36) Mangoes and Bullets - John Agard (poetry)

35) Selected Poems - Elizabeth Jennings (poetry)

34) The Moonstone - Wilkie Collins (fiction)

33) Devil Bones - Kathy Reichs (fiction)

32) 206 Bones - Kathy Reichs (fiction)

31) A Smell of Fish - Matthew Sweeny (poetry)

30) Remember - Agnes Lehoczky (poetry)

29) The Dark Film - Paul Farley (poetry)

28) Flatlands - Victor Tapner (poetry)

27) This Line is not for Turning: An Anthology of Contemporary British Prose Poetry - edited by Jane Monson (poetry)

26) Treasure Island - Robert Louis Stevenson (fiction)

25) The Book of Matthew - Matthew Welton (poetry)

24) Intimates - Helen Farish (poetry)

23) Domestic Violence - Eavan Boland (poetry, re-read)

22) Northanger Abbey - Jane Austen (fiction)

21) Stonepicker - Frieda Hughes (poetry)

20) Wintergirls - Laurie Halse Anderson (fiction)

19) Spilt Milk - Sarah Maguire (poetry)

18) Homesick for the Earth: Selected Poems - Jules Superviele with versions by Moniza Alvi (poetry)

17) Ariel - Sylvia Plath (poetry - re-read)

16) We needed coffee but... - Matthew Welton (poetry)

15) The Knife Drawer - Padrika Tarrant (fiction)

14) Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte (fiction)

13) Wordsmithery: The Writer's Craft and Practice - Edited by Jayne Steel (non-fiction)

12) The Range-Finder's Field Glasses - Graham High (poetry)

11) Collected Poems 1968 - Roy Fisher (poetry)

10) Fiere - Jackie Kay (poetry)

9) Glad not to be the Corpse - Lydia Harris (poetry)

8) Appearances at the Bentinck Hotel - Tim Cockburn (poetry)

7) Divining for Starters - Carrie Etter (poetry)

6) Black Juice - Margo Lanagan (fiction - short stories)

5) Public Dream - Frances Leviston (poetry)

4) Birthday Letters - Ted Hughes (poetry - re-read)

3) Birmingham River - Roy Fisher (poetry)

2) Standard Midland - Roy Fisher (poetry)

1) Salt - Jeremy Page (fiction