Showing posts with label reading. Show all posts
Showing posts with label reading. Show all posts

Monday, 16 August 2021

Books that shaped me as a writer


 

It would be nigh on impossible or would take weeks and a lot of deep thinking and memory trawling to list all the books that have shaped me or had a direct or indirect influence on my writing. I have, however, been reflecting recently on books I read as a child and a young adult and I will try and cover at least some of them here. 

Let’s get this straight. I come from a working-class family. We lived in a two-up-two down council house on an estate in a rural Norfolk town which was known for being a ‘London Overspill’ town. We were London overspill. Neither of my parents had degrees. My mum left secondary modern at 15 with no qualifications. My dad fared a little better and went to technical college where he trained as an engineering draftsman. My parents were young when they had me – 21 and 20 respectively. One thing my parents did have though was a love for books and music. My mum was a member of various book clubs and throughout my early childhood we had a fortnightly family pilgrimage to the local library – a tradition I kept up through my teens and well into adulthood. I firmly believe that libraries are essential, a necessity. Without the library I would have been lost. I read everything I could get my hands on – well except romance, I was never a fan of Mills and Boon. 

Let’s start at the beginning. The first books I remember were Doctor Seuss and the other books in the American ‘I can read it myself’ series. I have no idea where those books came from – perhaps my mum got them from a book club. I learnt to read with them before I went to school and I can see now that the surrealness and sense of loneliness and unfairness of some of the characters in the stories experience has certainly pervaded my own writing, and, perhaps, my view of the world. The Cat in the Hat books are the obvious ones but the books I remember most were: One Fish, Two Fish, Red Fish, Blue Fish; Green Eggs and Ham; Are You My Mother?; The King, the Mice and the Cheese; and The Diggingest Dog. I will never forget the thing in a giant bottle in the park in the dark or the little bird standing on top of a giant digger asking ‘Are you my mother?’. I am sure learning to read with these books instilled a love of reading that I would have never have got from Peter and Jane. 

There may have been other books from this time but if so, I have no memory of them. The next book I really remember with any clarity is The Enchanted Wood by Enid Blyton. I was a massive Blyton fan as a child often asking for her books for Christmas and birthday presents and also buying them in the second-hand bookshop on our rare visits to the nearest city. My love affair with her began with The Enchanted Wood. I must have been five or six and it is the first time I can remember a book making me want to write something myself. That book was a revelation to me as a child. I loved all the fantasy elements but also that it was rooted in the kind of everyday world I could relate to. I lived in a poor family. We had moved from the city and lived opposite a wood. I longed to find my own Faraway Tree and escape from my mundane existence to other exciting lands – I think it was my first sense that you could use imagination and reading/writing as an escape route from the everyday dysfunction of your family. Other Blyton books I loved were The Naughtiest Girl in the School series – what child from a noisy argumentative family doesn’t fantasise about escape to a boarding school; the Adventure series (Castle of Adventure, Sea of Adventure etc) – I wanted to be Barney, the boy who had no family and hitchhiked around the country with his pet monkey; and the Famous Five books. I did read the Secret Seven series but found them a bit tame and too Just Williamish. 

Fantasy and fairytale played a big part in my childhood reading habits. My mum had an old battered copy of Perrault’s Fairy Tales (illustrated by Edmond Du Lac) that I was obsessed with. I used to nag my mum to read me ‘Bluebeard’ over and over, thrilling at the point when it is unclear whether the brothers will be in time to save poor nosey Fatima. I used to regularly get massive books of fairy tales from the library – The Red Fairy Book, The Yellow Fairy Book, The Green Fairy book and so on. My mum read to me a lot – my sister and brother weren’t really interested. She read me The Hobbit, which I loved and she read me The Lord of the Rings – twice. It was enthralling and terrifying. She also read me some more adult books – The Thirty-Nine Steps, Jamaica Inn, the Boney books by Arthur Upfield, Day of the Triffids, Oliver Twist. I kept this tradition with my own son – though I have to confess I only read him Lord of the Rings once! 

We had the odd teacher at school who read to us too. One year I had a particularly literary teacher who read us Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, The Borrowers, as well as some books that TV series had been based on - Heartsease by Peter Dickinson (The Changes) and The Diddikoi by Rumer Godden (Kizzy). Some of my relatives bought me books as presents too – James and the Giant Peach, Edward Lear’s The Quangle Wangle Quee, Irish Fairytales and - quite randomly a book about Muhammad and one about Alfred the Great. My sister had a ton of Ladybird books too. The school also had a book club and occasionally I was allowed to buy a book from there – the most memorable of these was Stig of the Dump. 

As a teen I was still reading avidly. I read most of the adult books in the house – John Wyndham, Dennis Wheatley, H.G. Wells, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle. I had also graduated to the adult library and was thrilled by the likes of Sax Rohmer and the Doctor Syn books by Russell Thorndike. The high school library was a little tamer in comparison but I borrowed religiously none the less – though the only book I remember borrowing from there is a book called Pennington’s Seventeenth Summer – about a troubled teen. I also bought books from the secondhand book stall on the market – typically I wanted to read books my parents wouldn’t approve of and I read most of a (terrible but thrilling) series of novels about Hell’s Angels published by New English Library. They published a series about skinheads too but I was anti-racist and left wing even as a teen so I avoided them. 

By my teen’s I had developed a love affair with poetry and was writing some terrible poetry in the back of my English book. I had three poetry collections as a child (and still have all of them): Hilda Boswell’s Treasury of Poetry, The Oxford Book of Children’s Verse and my favourite Louis Untermeyer’s Golden Treasury of Poetry, which I read over and over – my favourite poem being the haunting ‘Highwayman’ by Alfred Noyes. My mum also had The Oxford Book of Poetry which I dipped into regularly – my preference being for the narrative poems of Tennyson like ‘The Lady of Shallot’. She also had a book of Bob Dylan’s song lyrics and drawings and a collection of John Betjeman’s poems. School did me no favours where poetry was concerned – the only poems I remember studying were John Masefield’s ‘Cargoes’ and a poem about ducks that I was made to learn as a punishment. 

I left home at sixteen and went to live in a commune but I continued my love affair with the library, finally graduating onto modern short stories and American novels – Jane Anne Phillips, Louise Erdrich and Ellen Gilchrist were great favourites in my early 20s and it was at this time that I started seriously writing short stories. At the commune there was a massive library with a really eclectic collection of books. I read about Manson’s family, The Grateful Dead, and Drop City – a commune in America in the sixties. I also read Dickens, Hardy, Lawrence, Laurie Lee, Carlos Casteneda, Joan Collins, Colleen McCullough, William Burroughs, Angie Bowie, Angela Carter and Richard Brautigan. 

I am not sure that there is a point to this other than it being a loose collection of my reading up until my early twenties – and I am already aware that there are things I missed out. Peter Puffer’s Fun Book for instance (do look it up – it was definitely illustrated by someone who has done drugs) or a book that I took out repeatedly from the library as a child that I can’t remember the name of – about two children who find a disused station. I was also obsessed with Roald Dahl’s The Magic Finger – where a hunting family wake up to find they have duck wings and the ducks have arms and start shooting them. A novel called Princess Anne that I bought at the guide jumble sale and from which I learned what lumbago was. I also bought a copy of Gulliver’s Travels at the same jumble sale and I did try and read it umpteen times as a child and a teen but never got very far. 

I suppose my conclusion is that I was drawn to books where there was another world waiting beyond this one or where things were not as they seemed. Magical realism I suppose. I was also drawn to bleak stories and gritty realism. My favourite Hardy novels is Tess which has to be one of the most depressing novels ever written – and yet there is something utterly compelling about it. Perhaps that Hardy wrote non judgementally about the real lives of the working classes and his descriptions of a British countryside we will never see again are sublime. I think that all these passions and preoccupations are reflected in my own writing. I love the surreal. People transformed into animals or inanimate objects, metaphors, fairytale-ish scenarios, the lure and threat of the woods.

Saturday, 21 March 2020

Books read in 2019


159) Everything I Never Told You - Celeste Ng (fiction)
158) Sorrowtoothpaste Mirrorcream by Kim Hyesoon (poetry)
157) Body Thesaurus by Jennifer Militello (poetry)
156) The Emma Press Anthology of Contemporary Gothic Verse (poetry)
155) City of Departures by Helen Tookey (poetry)
154) The Black Place by Tamar Yoseloff (poetry)
153) This Tilting Earth by Jane Lovell (poetry)
152) Rock, Paper, Scissors by Richard Osmond (poetry)
151) A Map Towards Fluency by Lisa Kelly (poetry)150) Changing Room by Anna Woodford (poetry)
149) Baby by Patricia Debney (poetry)
148) Slattern by Kate Clanchy (poetry)
147) Shadow Dogs by Natalie Whittaker (poetry)
146) Naming Bones by Joanna Ingham (poetry)
145) Kismet by Jennifer Lee Tsai (poetry)
144) Dad, Remember You Are Dead by Jacqueline Saphra (poetry)
143) Coal Black Mornings by Brett Anderson (non fiction)
142) More Shadow Than Bird by Nuar Alsadir (poetry)
41) Olive Kitteridge by Elizabeth Strout (fiction)
140) Spider Bones by Kathy Reichs (fiction)
139) Wedding Beasts by Jay G Ying (poetry)
138) Man's House Catches Fire by Tom Sastry (poetry)
137) Box Rooms by Laurie Bolger (poetry)
136) Firing Pins by Jo Young (poetry)
135) #AFTERHOURS by Inua Ellams (poetry)
134) After The Formalities by Anthony Anaxagorou (poetry)
133) Bowie: Loving The Alien by Christopher Sandford (non fiction)
132) The Argonauts by Maggie Nelson (non fiction)
131) Surge by Jay Bernard (poetry)
130) fothermather by Gail McConnell (poetry)
129) Sodium 136 by Carole Bromley (poetry)
128) The Fantastic Book of Everybody's Secrets by Sophie Hannah (short stories)
127) Bridport Prize Anthology 2019 - Winning Poems, Short Stories and Flash Fiction (anthology)
126) Girl Falling by P B Hughes (poetry)
125) Eye Level: Poems by Jenny Xie (poetry)
124) The Tradition by Ben Jericho (poetry)
123) A Warm and Snouting Thing by Ramona Herdman (poetry)
122) Push: My Father, Polio and Me by Sarah Passingham (non fiction)
121) Diary of a Miu Miu Salesgirl by Jennifer Wong (poetry) Jennifer Wong
120) String and Circumstance by Melissa Fu (short stories)
119) Falling Outside Eden by Melissa Fu (poetry)
118) Urban Drift by Natalie Burdett (poetry)
117) All This is Implied by Will Harris (poetry)
116) Stitch by Samuel Tongue (poetry)
115) The Protection of Ghosts by Natalie Linh Bolderston (poetry)
114) THE DANCING BOY by Michelle Diaz (poetry)
113) Time Lived, Without Its Flow by Denise Riley (non fiction)
112) Dear Big Gods by Mona Arshi (poetry)
111) The Latest Winter by Maggie Nelson (poetry)
110) Playing House by Katherine Stansfield (poetry)
109) Search Party by Richard Meier (poetry)
108) Dancing on the Doorstep by Tom Corbett (poetry)
107) Overwintering by Pippa Little (poetry)
106) Zebra by Ian Humphreys (poetry)
105) Time is in Fields by Jean Atkin (poetry)
104) Fen by Daisy Johnson (short stories)
103) Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life by Anne Lamott (non fiction)
102) Quicksand Beach by Kate Bingham (poetry)
101) The Turning by Tim Winton (short stories)
100) Notes from the Fog: Stories by Ben Marcus (short stories)
99) Lepus by Barry Wilson (poetry)
98) To Sweeten Bitter - Raymond Antrobus -(poetry, re read)
97) Things Only Borderlines Know by Olivia Tuck (poetry)
96) Support, Support by Helen Charman (poetry)
95) In Praise of Truth: The Personal Account of Theodore Marklund, Picture-Framer by Torgny Lindgren (fiction)
94) The Book of Jobs: Poems by Kathryn Maris (poetry)
93) American Sonnets for My Past and Future Assassin by Terrance Hayes (poetry)
92) Basic Nest Architecture by Polly Atkin (poetry)
91) Something Bright, Then Holes by Maggie Nelson (poetry)
90) England: Poems from a School by Kate Clanchy (poetry)
89) Dear, by Alice Willetts (poetry)
87) Safety Behaviour by Emma Jeremy (poetry)
86) Live Canon 2018 Anthology (poetry)
85) The Unquiet by L. Kiew (poetry)
84) Reckless Paper Birds by John McCullough (poetry)
83) Erato by Deryn Rees-Jones (poetry)
82) The Woman on the Other Side by Stephanie Conn (poetry)
81) Flèche by Mary Jean Chan (poetry)
80) Noctuary by Niall Campbell (poetry)
79) The Million-petalled Flower of Being Here by Vidyan Ravinthiran (poetry)
78) Whistle by Martin Figura (poetry, re read)
77) An Unremarkable Body by Elisa Odato (poetry)
76) The Forward Book of Poetry 2019 by Various Poets (poetry)
75) Island By Stephanie Conn (poetry)
74) The Somnambulist Cookbook by Andrew McDonnell (poetry)
73) Hand & Skull by Zoë Brigley (poetry)
72) The Poetry Home Repair Manual: Practical Advice for Beginning Poets by Ted Kooser (non fiction)
71) My Dark Horses by Jodie Hollander (poetry)
70) In a House of Lies (Inspector Rebus #22) by Ian Rankin (fiction)
69) Lumière by Sue Burge (poetry)
68) I'm OK, I'm Pig! by Kim Hyesoon, Don Mee Choi (Translator) (poetry)
67) The Anatomical Venus by Helen Ivory (poetry)
66) Kingdomland by Rachael Allen (poetry)
65) The Babies by Sabrina Orah Mark (poetry)
64) The Not-Dead and The Saved and Other Stories by Kate Clanchy (short stories)
63) Maps of the Abandoned City by Helen Ivory (poetry)
62) At Hajj by Amaan Hyder (poetry)
61) Your Relationship to Motion Has Changed by Amish Trivedi (poetry)
60) Some Pink Star by Sophie Essex (poetry)
59) An Unremarkable Body by Elisa Lodato (fiction)
58) Near Future by Suzannah Evans (poetry)
57) Madness by Sam Sax (poetry)
56) Girl by Rebecca Goss (poetry)
55) Collected Stories by W. Somerset Maugham, Nicholas Shakespeare (Introduction) (short stories)
54) Threat by Julia Webb (poetry)
53) by Lewis Buxton, Amelia Loulli, Victoria Richards, Jane Commane (editor), Kim Moore (editor) (poetry)
52) Hare Soup by Dorothy Molloy (poetry)
51) Hand & Skull by Zoë Brigley (poetry)
50) Deaf Republic by Ilya Kaminsky (poetry)
49) Darling, It's Me by Alison Winch (poetry)
48) Rabbit by Sophie Robinson (poetry, re read)
47) In Search of Equilibrium by Theresa Lola (poetry)
46) Shiner by Maggie Nelson (poetry)
45) The Emigrants by W.G. Sebald (non fiction)
44) Your Fault by Andrew Cowan (fiction)
43) Lantern by Sean Hewitt (poetry)
42) Bitter Berries by Marina Tsvetaeva, Moniza Alvi (Translator), Veronika Krasnova (Translator) (poetry)
41) Moon Milk by Rachel Bower (poetry)
40) Spells: 21st Century Occult Poetry by Rebecca Tamás (ed.) (poetry)
39) Lanny by Max Porter (poetry/fiction)
38) Bluets by Maggie Nelson (poetry)
37) Discipline by Jane Yeh (poetry)
36) Goest by Cole Swensen (poetry)
35) Luxe by Amy Key (poetry)
34) How to Grow Matches by S.A. Leavesley (poetry)
33) At or Below Sea Level by Elisabeth Sennitt Clough (poetry)
32) Witch by Rebecca Tamás (poetry)
31) 50 American Plays by Michael Dickman (poetry)
30) Green Migraine - Michael Dickman (poetry)
29) The Triumph of Cancer by Chris McCabe (poetry)
28) The Healing Next Time by Roy McFarlane (poetry)
27) Future Home of the Living God by Louise Erdrich (fiction)
26) The Rules Do Not Apply by Ariel Levy (non fiction)
25) The Built Moment by Lavinia Greenlaw (poetry)
24) Vertigo & Ghost by Fiona Benson (poetry)
23) How to Talk to Anyone: 92 Little Tricks for Big Success in Relationships (non fiction)
22) The End of the West by Michael Dickman (poetry)
21) Isn't Forever by Amy Key (poetry)
20) Girl Golem by Rachael Clyne (poetry)
19) £5 for this love by Stephen Daniels (poetry)
18) The Beauty of the Husband: A Fictional Essay in 29 Tangos by Anne Carson (poetry)
17) The Escapologist by Jinny Fisher (poetry)
16) A Hostile Environment: A Poetry Conversation by Nigel Kent, Sarah Thomson (poetry)
15) Rosary of Ghosts - Grant Tabard (poetry)
14) OK, Mr Field - Katherine Kilalea (fiction)
13) The Red Parts - Maggie Nelson (non fiction)
12) The Perseverance - Raymond Antrobus (poetry)
11) Moving Into The Space Cleared By Our Mothers - Mary Dorcey (poetry)
10) In the Days of Rain: A Daughter, a Father, a Cult - Rebecca Stott (non fiction)
9) New Poetries vii - Michael Schmidt (ed.) (poetry)
8) The House with Only an Attic and a Basement - Kathryn Maris (poetry)
7) The Happy Bus - Louisa Campbell (poetry)
6) My Converted Father - Sarah Law (poetry)
5) The Art of Description - Mark Doty (non fiction)
4) Three Poems - Hannah Sullivan (poetry)
3) Faber New Poets: 10 - Will Burns (poetry)
2) My Name is Leon - Kit de Waal (fiction)
1) The Water Cure - Sophie Mackintosh (fiction)

Saturday, 11 March 2017

The mercurial mind - ways in which to read poetry

When I first started reading poetry I approached it as I would a novel - thinking I had to read one collection at a time from cover to cover, then I began dipping in and out. Now I read cover to cover but I may well have several collections on the go at any given time. Take today for instance, I read a pamphlet sized collection cover to cover and made notes on it for an endorsement I am writing, but I have also dipped into several other collections I am reading, as well as reading bits of a journal and reading some poems online. This seems to me a very natural way of reading. It is rare that a poetry collection is so riveting that I can't put it down and have to compulsively read it straight through - although it does happen (and is a treat when it does) and some poetry collections take a great deal of concentration and mental processing - in these cases I can only read a few pages at a time before I need to take a break. Using my old mode of poetry reading I would have probably put the book down after those few pages and gone and found something else to do or read a novel. Now, if I choose to, I can move onto reading a different collection.

I seem to have developed this mercurial mind approach to reading in general. I still tend only to read one novel at a time (although I may have several I have started and stopped and might later come back to) but I will also have several poetry collections, a short story collection or two and several non fiction books on the go at any given time. In fact Goodreads tells me that I am currently reading 36 books. I think I developed this way of reading when I was studying - I like it it means I spend more time reading overall and that I read more books - something that feels more urgent as you get older. and feel you might be running out of time.

I don't do massively close readings of every poetry collection I read. I usually give more attention to the books I find more engaging. Collections where I want to come back to particular poems again and again. With these collections I sometimes make notes or post snippets on Twitter so that I can remember them later - and perhaps to entice other readers to seek out the book. If I am not finding a collection engaging or am finding it difficult I don't usually give up. Often I will try reading poems several times or reading them aloud to see if I can make more sense of them or get a feel for them. Sometimes I put the book away on a to read pile so that I can come back to it later - it might simply be that I am not in the right frame of mind for it - after all we bring all our emotional states and baggage to a reading of any book. There are, of course, books I don't love. These tend to be discarded after reading - these could be mediocre writing, but they can also be books that I am simply not ready for yet. I remember reading a few books when I did my degree and hating them - Ted Hughes Crow was one of them - I loathed it - I found the language ugly and heavy and too masculine. However a couple of years later I suddenly had a hankering to read it and this time I loved it - it was all those things of course but now I "got it." I think I simply wasn't ready for it yet the first time I was introduced to it. I think of it as a kind of reading evolution. It's like studying art - most people don't love abstract without first gaining an appreciation of more conventional forms - it's like you work your way up to abstract through studying the history of art so that when you get there you can fully appreciate it. Poetry is the same I think - one starts with the more conventional and works one's way towards an appreciation of the more surreal and experimental.

Saturday, 23 January 2016

On Writing and Discovery

These outpourings  come both bidden and unbidden, these bidings and bindings, these flows that can only ever be temporarily stemmed.

Writing is a rare thing but is also not/no/never a rare thing.

A rare thing indeed is to make the most perfect sense, as if to draw a sigh from the reader.

Like those blank/dry months of unsatisfying reading, when you suddenly and unexpectedly (after almost having given up all hope of ever being moved by poetry again) come upon something so right and profound that it makes you want to leap up out of your seat. throw the book into the air and shout: Yes that's it, that's exactly it! And then you want to read it again, over and over.

And it might be a mere simple, a distillation of the essence of something: a revelation of the true somethingness of something.

Or it might be a big thing, like the biggest, most exciting, most explosive use of language poem that warps your mind into a shape that it can never fully spring back from, that changes your relationship to the world/word.

And you might read it over and over.

It's a bit like sex in the excitement of that first time - the tentative and not so tentative exploration.

But it's also not like sex, because sex has room to get better and better, but although a mega exciting poem is still mega exciting on the second or fourth or sixteenth reading, you can never better that YES moment, that moment of revelation and discovery.

It must be like being an archaeologist or an explorer or an astronaut even.

That first moon-step is always going to be the one you most remember.

And these moon-steps; what are they but a doorway to another world, another way of thinking. They break the mind wide open like a rock cracked apart to reveal its crystals. They send the writer scuttling sideways for pen and paper.

Thursday, 14 January 2016

Books read in 2015


(in reverse order to which I read them)

  1. 1 The Inflectionist Review Anthology of Poetry - John Sibley Williams & A. Molotkov (Editors) (poetry)
  2.     Bunny - Selima Hill (poetry)
  3.    What Every Body is Saying: An Ex-FBI Agent's Guide to Speed-Reading People - Joe Navarro (non fiction)
  4.    The Notebook - Ágota Kristóf (fiction)
  5.    Talking to Ourselves - Andrés Neuman (fiction)
  6.     Jutland - Selima Hill (poetry)
  7.     Mondeo Man - Luke Wright (poetry)
  8.     Red Doc - Anne carson (poetry)
  9.     Beauty/Beauty - Rebecca Perry (poetry)
  10.     Crescendos - Jake Reynolds (poetry)
  11.     Where is My Mask of an Honest Man? by Laura Del-Rivo (fiction, short stories)
  12.     The Fire Station by Sarah Barnsley (poetry)
  13.     That Smell and Notes from Prison - Sonallah Ibrahim (fiction)
  14.     Lazy Thoughts of a Lazy Woman and other poems - Grace Nichols (poetry)
  15.     She Inserts the Key - Marianne Burton (poetry)
  16.     Black Neon - Tony O'Neill (fiction)
  17.     Actual Air - David Berman (poetry)
  18.     Things to Make and Break - May-Lan Tan (fiction, short stories)
  19.     Human Work: A Poet's Cookbook - Sean Borodale (poetry)
  20.     The Age of Wire and String Fictions - Ben Marcus (fiction, short stories)
  21.     Disinformation - Frances Leviston (poetry)
  22.     At the Time of Partition - Moniza Alvi (poetry, re-read)
  23.     Beautiful Girls - Melissa Lee Houghton (poetry, re-read)
  24.     Infinite Difference: Other Poetries by U.K. Women Poets (poetry, re-read)
  25.     House - Myra Connell (poetry)
  26.     Poetry in Practice - Brian Keaney and Bill Lucas (non-fiction)
  27.     The Merchant of Feathers - Tanya Shirley (poetry)
  28.     The Taste of River Water - Cate Kennedy (poetry)
  29.  UEA MA Creative Writing Anthologies 2015: Poetry (poetry)
  30.     Native Guard - Natasha Trethewey (poetry)
  31.     Loop of Jade - Sarah Howe (poetry)
  32.     The Very Best of 52: a poem for every week of the year - Jonathan Davidson (editor) (poetry, re.read)
  33.     Sooner or Later Frank - Jeremy Reed (poetry)
  34.     Blue Movie - Bobby Parker (poetry - re read)
  35.     Dolls - Tom Whelan (poetry)
  36.     Things to Do Before you Leave Town - Ross Sutherland (poetry)
  37.     Some Bright Elegance - Kayo Chingonyi (poetry)
  38.     Circus Apprentice - Katherine Gallagher (poetry)
  39.     Blood Work - Matthew Siegel (poetry)
  40.     The Retrieval System - Maxine Kumin (poetry, re read)
  41.     The Knowledge - Robert Peake (poetry, re-read)
  42.     Sudden Collapses in Public Places - Julia Darling (poetry)
  43.     Shibboleth - Michael Donaghy (poetry)
  44.     Lifting the Piano With One Hand - Gaia Holmes (poetry)
  45.     Making Nice - Matt Sumell (fiction, short stories)
  46.     Wild Gratitude - Edward Hirsch (poetry)
  47.     Trilobites & Other Stories - Breece D'J Pancake (fiction, short stories)
  48.     Citizen: An American Lyric (poetry)
  49.     Kith - Jo Bell (poetry, re read)
  50.     See You in Paradise - J. Robert Lennon (fiction, short stories)
  51.     Eliza and the Bear - Eleanor Rees (poetry)
  52.     Physical - Andrew Macmillan (poetry)
  53.     The Good Dark - Ryan Van Winkle (poetry)
  54.     When God is a Traveller - Arundhathi Subramaniam (poetry)
  55.     School of the Arts - Mark Doty (poetry)
  56.     National Poetry Competition Winners' Anthology 2014 (poetry)
  57.     Accurate Measurements - Adam White (poetry)
  58.     The World Before Snow - Tim Liardet (poetry)
  59.     Kim Kardashian's Marriage - Sam Riviere (poetry)
  60.     The Organ Box - Matt Howard (poetry)
  61.     The Knowledge - Robert Paeake (poetry)
  62.     The Whole & Rain-domed Universe - Colette Bryce (poetry)
  63.     The Very Best of 52: a poem for every week of the year - Jonathan Davidson (editor) (poetry)
  64.     The Next Country - Idra Novey (poetry)
  65.     Happiness - Jack Underwood (poetry)
  66.     The Bluffer's Guide to Poetry - Nick Yapp (non fiction)
  67.     Missing the Eclipse - Joan Hewitt (poetry)
  68.     Beautiful Girls - Melissa Lee-Houghton (poetry)
  69.     Tell Me the Truth About Love - W.H. Auden (poetry)
  70.     My Family and other Superheroes - Jonathan Edwards (poetry)
  71.     Moon Whales - Ted Hughes (poetry)
  72.     Kumkum Malhotra - Preti Taneja (fiction)
  73.     The Hitting Game - Graham Clifford (poetry)
  74.     Corpus - Michael Symmons Roberts (poetry)
  75.     Langoustine: Fragments of a Philosophical Marine Romance - George Szirtes (poetry)
  76.     A Radiance - Bethany W. Pope (poetry)
  77.     Bright Travellers - Fiona Benson (poetry)
  78.     Small Hands - Mona Arshi (poetry)
  79.     Those People - Paul Stephenson (poetry)
  80.     Monkey Grip - Helen Garner (fiction)
  81.     The Zoo Father - Pascale Petiit (poetry - re-read)
  82.     Under the Pier - Selena Godden (poetry)
  83.     The Gold Cell - Sharon Olds (poetry)
  84.     The Summer Son: A Novel - Craig Lancaster (fiction)
  85.     Prayers for the Stolen - Jennifer Clement (fiction)
  86.     You Good Thing - Dara Wier (poetry)
  87.     Indwelling - Gillian Allnutt (poetry)
  88.     Navigation - Jo Bell (poetry)
  89.     Grain - John Glenday (poetry)
  90.     Permission to Breathe - Michael Laskey (poetry)
  91.     The Albertine Workout - Anne Carson (poetry)
  92.     The Collected Works of Billy the Kid - Michael Ondaatje (poetry)
  93.     Skirrid Hill - Owen Sheers (poetry)
  94.     Battleborn - Claire Vaye Watkins (fiction, short stories)
  95.     Between Two Windows - Oli Hazzard (poetry)
  96.     Blue Movie - Bobby Parker (poetry)
  97.     Kith - Jo Bell (poetry)
  98.     The Dead Lake - Hamid Ismailov (fiction, re-read)
  99.     The Chicago Poems - Karl Sandburg (poetry)
  100.     Prester John - John Buchan (fiction)
  101.     The Korean Word For Butterfly - James Zerndt (fiction)
  102.     Hallelujah for 50ft Women by Raving Beauties Hallelujah for 50ft Women: Poems About Women's Relationship to Their Bodies - edited by The Raving Beauties (poetry)
  103.     Duetcetera - Ira Lightman (poetry)
  104.     Gumbeaux - Kimberly Vargas (fiction)
  105.     The Secret Life of Objects - Dawn Raffel (non fiction)
  106.     The Awakening - Kate Chopin (fiction)
  107.     Skelelittle - Ira Lightman (poetry)
  108.     Party - Jackie Wills (poetry)
  109.     One Dead Behind Us - Audre Lorde (poetry)
  110.     The Answer to the Riddle Is Me: A Memoir of Amnesia - David Stuart MacLean (non-fiction)
  111.     The Half-Finished Heaven - Tomas Tranströmer- translated by Robert Bly (poetry)
  112.     Science and Steepleflower - Forrest Gander (poetry)
  113.     Trains of Winnipeg - Clive Holden (poetry)
  114.     Disclaimer - Renee Knight (fiction)
  115.     Fauna - Jacueline Bishop (poetry)
  116.     Ten: The New Wave - edited by Karen McCarthy Woolf (poetry)
  117.     Soon Every House Will have One - Holly Hopkins (poetry)
  118.     The Shared Surface - Jane Monson (poetry)
  119.     What the Living Do - Marie Howe (poetry, re-read)
  120.     Inventory - Linda Black (poetry)
  121.     The Girl On the Train - Paula Hawkins (fiction)
  122.     Touching Distances - Diary Poems - Anne Cluysenaar (poetry)
  123.  Out of Sheer Rage: In the Shadow of D. H. Lawrence - Geoff Dyer (non fiction)
  124.     After This Comes the Food - Sarah Perry (fiction)
  125.     The Red Wardrobe - Sarah Corbett (poetry)
  126.     The Beautiful and Damned - F. Scott Fitzgerald (fiction)
  127.     Stop What You're Doing and Read This! - Various (non fiction)
  128.     Woman's Head as a Jug - Jackie Wills (poetry)
  129.     Odessa - Patricia Kirkpatrick (poetry)
  130.     The Shining Girls - Lauren Beukes (fiction)
  131.     The Lichtenberg Figures - Ben Lerner (poetry)
  132.     How We Became Human: New and Selected Poems 1975-2002 - Joy Harjo (poetry)
  133.     Life in a Box is a Pretty Life - Dawn Lundy Martin (poetry)
  134.     The White Road and Other Stories - Tania Hershman (short stories)
  135.     On Purpose - Nick Laird (poetry)
  136.     Livid among the Ghostings - Anna Percy (poetry)
  137.     My Soul to Take - Yrsa Sigurðardóttir (fiction)
  138.     Into the Darkest Corner - Elizabeth Haynes (fiction)
  139.     Human Remains - Elizabeth Haynes (fiction)
  140.     In the Miso Soup - Ryū Murakami (fiction)
  141.     The Whole Story and Other Stories - Ali Smith (fiction - short stories)
  142.     A Responsibility to Awe: Poems - Rebecca Elson (poetry)
  143.    The Husband's Secret - Liane Moriarty (fiction)
  144.     Snow Calling - Agnieszk Studzinska (poetry)
  145.     Vauxhall - Gabriel Gbadamosi (fiction)
  146.     In the Bee Latitudes - "Annah Sobelman (poetry)
  147.     Slow man - J.M. Coetzee (fiction)
  148.     The Indian Bride - Karin Fossum (fiction)
  149.     The Woods - Harlen Coben (fiction)
  150.     The Farm - Tom Rob Smith (fiction)
  151.     The Three - Sarah Lotz (fiction)
  152.     The Retrieval System - Maxine Kumin (poetry)
  153.     The Barking Thing - Suzanne Batty (poetry)


Saturday, 14 March 2015

Some thoughts on Re-reading Books

'When I re-read The Rainbow I had thought I might discover, like a flower pressed between the pages, the dried remains of my younger self preserved within it.' (Geoff Dyer - Out of Sheer Rage: In the Shadow of D.H. Lawrence) 

This quote encapsulates for me why sometimes re-reading an old favourite can sometimes be a little disappointing. Haven't we all had that experience of going back to book or film that we loved when we were younger or that really resonated with us, only to discover that it just isn't as good as we remember or worse still that it leaves us cold? How much we enjoy a book isn't just about the quality of writing, or the way the story engages us (the readers) - it is about the experiences that we as readers bring to the reading of each particular story - our state of mind, our life circumstances, our past experiences etc. 

It makes sense that we respond to texts differently at different points in our lives - after all our life experience at sixteen-years-old is going to be vastly different to our life experience in our forties - and what seemed new and exciting to us as teenagers may seem like stale and hackneyed ideas to us as adults, or things that seemed plausible may seem less so. But I think also that Dyer has nit the nail on the head - when I re-read a book there is almost certainly an element of wanting to re-capture the original feelings it engendered in me - whether these are recognition, fear, excitement or whatever, and part of that desire might also be yearning to re-experience what it is like to be a younger version of myself. Of course this is next to impossible - unless you have amnesia you can't read a book you have already read and expect to have the same reactions to it as the first time you read it. We can only really experience something for the first time once, so on subsequent readings we will not only be bringing the life experiences that we have accumulated since the reading, but also our memories and thoughts (both conscious and subconscious) of the book to the reading experience. 

Of course that doesn't mean that we shouldn't re-read books or that we won't enjoy re-visiting novels that we have already read. Often a re-reading of a book can be enjoyable in a different way to the first reading, it can remind us how we felt when we first read it, and, perhaps more importantly, it can lead us to a deeper understanding of the text.

Tuesday, 6 January 2015

Books Read in 2014

  • Last first...

  • 93 In the Bee Latitudes - ‘Annah Sobelman (poetry)
  • 92) The Legend of Colton H. Bryant - Alexandra Fuller (non-fiction)
  • 91) Maggie and Me - Damaien Barr (non-fiction)
  • 90) The Gypsy and the Poet - David Morley (poetry)
  • 89) Every Day is for the Thief - Teju Cole (fiction)
  • 88) Notes From the Balcony - Lynn Woollacott (poetry)
  • 87) Like Rabbits - Lynne Bryan (fiction)
  • 86) Diary Of an Unsmug Married - Polly James (fiction)
  • 85) Granta 113: The Best of Young Spanish Language Novelists (fiction - short stories)
  • 84) My Sister's Keeper - Bill Benners (fiction)
  • 83) The Mathematics of Friedrich Gauss: Family Snapshots - D.W. Wilson (fiction)
  • 82) All One Breath - John Burnside (poetry)
  • 81) Beneath Stars Long Extinct - Ron Egatz (poetry)
  • 80) Small Grass - Jacqueline Gabbitas (poetry)
  • 79) Place - Jorie Graham (poetry)
  • 78) The Beginner's Goodbye - Anne Tyler (fiction)
  • 77) The Waterproof Bible - Andrew Kaufman (fiction)
  • 76) Picture Me Gone - Meg Rossoff (fiction)
  • 75) And After All This I Saw: Selections from the Work of Julian of Norwich - Edwin Kelly (poetry)
  • 74) The Book of Strange New Things - Michel Faber (fiction)
  • 73) Irene - Piere Lemaitre (fiction)
  • 72) At the Time of Partition - Moniza Alvi (poetry)
  • 71) Black Country - Liz Berry (poetry)
  • 70) Wreaking - James Scudamore (fiction)
  • 69) Disgrace - J.M. Coetzee (fiction)
  • 68) Thunderstruck and other Stories - Elizabeth McCracken (fiction - short stories)
  • 67) Ballistics - D.W. Wilson (fiction)
  • 66) The Dead Lake - Hamid Ismailov (fiction)
  • 65) Strange Bodies - Marcel Theroux (fiction)
  • 64) When I was Five I Killed Myself - Howard Buten (fiction)
  • 63) Fauverie - Pascale Petit (poetry)
  • 62) Zoo Father - Pascale Petit (poetry, re-read)
  • 61) The Sense of an Ending - Julian Barnes (fiction)
  • 60) Snapper - Brian Kimberling (fiction)
  • 59) Imagined Sons - Carrie Etter (poetry)
  • 58) Under the Skin - Michael Faber (fiction)
  • 57) The Lake in the Woods - Tim O'Brien (fiction)
  • 56) Moontide - Niall Campbell (poetry)
  • 55) Comradely Greetings – Nadya Tolokonnikova (non-fiction)
  • 54) This is Yarrow - Tara Bergin (poetry)
  • 53) Parallax -Sinead Morrisey (poetry)
  • 52) Gone Girl - Gillian Flynn (fiction)
  • 51) Sins of the Leopard - James Brooks (poetry)
  • 50) The Cartographer Tries to Map a Way to Zion - Kei Miller (poetry)
  • 49) The Hundred-Year-Old Man Who Climbed Out of the Window and Disappeared - Jonas Jonasson (fiction)
  • 48) Elizabeth is Missing - Emma Healey (fiction)
  • 47) Ties that Bind - Catherine Deveney (fiction)
  • 46) Hoad and other Stories - Sarah Passingham (fiction, short stories)
  • 45) The Great Gatsby - F. Scott Fitzgerald (fiction)
  • 44) The Universe Versus Alex Woods - Gavin Extence (fiction)
  • 43) Erosion - S.A. Hemmings (fiction)
  • 42) Sic Transit Wagon and other stories - Barbara Jenkins (Fiction, short stories)
  • 41) The White Lioness - henning Mankell (fiction)
  • 40) The Impossible Dead - Ian Rankin (fiction)
  • 39) Hot Damn - Cat Woodward (poetry)
  • 38) Candide - Voltaire (fiction)
  • 37) Black Beauty - Anna Sewell (fiction)
  • 36) Sleeping Keys - Jean Sprackland (poetry)
  • 35) Double Negative - Ivan Vladislavic (non fiction)
  • 34) Planet-shaped Horse - Luke Kennard (poetry)
  • 33) Bysuss - Jen Hadfield (poetry)
  • 32) Division Street - Helen Mort (poetry)
  • 31) Tenth of December - George Saunders (fiction - re-read)
  • 30) Adventures in Form - edited by Tom Chivers (poetry)
  • 29) Bevel - William Letford (poetry, re-read)
  • 28) Barcelona - Philip Langeskov (fiction)
  • 27) Love Me Do - Lydia Macpherson (poetry)
  • 26) Gathering Evidence - Caoilinn Hughes (poetry)
  • 25) Perfect -Rachel Joyce (fiction)
  • 24) Strange Weather inTokyo - Hiromi Kawakami ( fiction)
  • 23) Standard Twin Fantasy - Sam Riviere (poetry)
  • 22) Forward Book of Poetry 2014 (poetry)
  • 21) Yoga - Tom Warner (poetry)
  • 20) Love, Nina, Despatches from Family Life - Nina Stibbe (non fiction)
  • 19) Instant-Flex 718 - Heather Phillipson (poetry)
  • 18) Enough About You - Notes Towards the New Autobiography - David Shields (non-fiction)
  • 17) Ink's Wish - Sarah Law (poetry)
  • 16) When the Killing's Done - T.C. Boyle (fiction)
  • 15) Violet - Selima Hill (poetry - re-read)
  • 14) The Marlowe Papers - Ros Barber (poetry)
  • 13) Pale View of Hills - Kazuo Ishiguro (fiction)
  • 12) Truffle Beds - Katherine Pierpoint (poetry)
  • 11) The Goldfinch - Donna Tartt (fiction)
  • 10) Stag's Leap - Sharon Olds (poetry, re-read)
  • 9) Splitfish - Kiran Millwood Hargrave (poetry)
  • 8) The Shock of the Fall - Nathan Filer (fiction)
  • 7) Conjure - Michael Donaghy (poetry)
  • 6) The Paraffin Child - Stephen Blanchard (fiction)
  • 5) Her Birth - Rebecca Goss (poetry)
  • 4) The Museum of Disappearing Sounds - Zoe Skoulding (poetry)
  • 3) Ice - Gillian Clarke (poetry)
  • 2) Life: An Exploded Diagram - Mal Peet (fiction)
  • 1) Fallen Land - Patrick Flannery (fiction)

Monday, 20 January 2014

How Not to Write Poetry

This weekend I was mostly trapped at home waiting for a cooker delivery - "the perfect time to get some writing done'" a friend said. Well you might think so, but that is not how things panned out.

The said cooker was scheduled for delivery sometime on Sunday. On Saturday I frantically cleaned the kitchen - moving things out of the room to enable access, and cleaning the disgusting and very embarrassing mess that had accumulated down the side of the cooker. I also had to find the key to the padlock on the gate and make sure it worked, plus clear up a little present that either a cat or a fox had left on the back doorstep. (The plus side of this was that I discovered a stash of beer that had been put outside when the fridge was full at Christmas - result!) By the time I had finished all this I was exhausted, and it was as much as I could do to collapse on the sofa with a film and a beer.

Sunday dawned - the day I usually have a lie-in, but the email had said that the cooker could arrive anytime from 8am to 8pm, so I had to make sure we were up and breakfasted just in case we happened to be their first delivery. Next I went online to track my delivery. I typed in my delivery number and was informed that I could expect my delivery between 10.10am and 2.10pm. I resisted the urge to growl and decided to get on with some work. I wanted to edit some poems and type up some others. But here's the thing - when you know that two burly men can knock on your door at any second and expect you to jump up and open the gate etc. it is pretty hard to settle to any work. In the end I had to give up, as I just couldn't concentrate, and I decided to read a book instead. It didn't feel too much like cheating as I do have to finish it before the book group tomorrow night. Anyway, I reasoned, the cooker will be in by three at the latest: I can work then.

The delivery men (who were very friendly) arrived at about 1.30pm. They came into my kitchen and decided that there was no way that they could install my chosen cooker as the cupboards on either side are too low. I argued that I have had the same type of cooker there for fifteen years - but regulations have changed, so back the cooker went to the depot. I then spent half an hour on the (very expensive) helpline only to be told that I will have to ring back and sort it out on Monday. In the meantime I needed to go back to the drawing board and find another cooker that I could order in its place.

I bribed son with the promise of a cooked vegetarian breakfast at Morrison's cafe, and he drove me to Currys. The selection of cookers was small and the staff were unhelpful. I bought son and I breakfast and decided I would have to look online. Online though, whilst it sounds like an easy option, necessitates hours of trawling through websites comparing features prices and reviews. So as you can probably tell no writing or editing got done this weekend - and no baking as I am back to square one with the cooker. I am writing this whilst listening to some kind of demented piano music on the Knowhow helpline. Some time soon I will get some poetry done

Tuesday, 14 January 2014

Books Read in 2013



90) Tenth of December - George Saunders (fiction, short stories)
89) Train Dreams - Denis Johnson (fiction)
88) The Colour of Milk - Nell Leyshon (fiction)
87) Her Birth - Rebecca Goss (poetry)
86) How Many Camels is too Many? - Colette Sensier (poetry)
85) Electric Shadow - Heidi Williamson (poetry, re-read)
84) A Dangerous Age - Ellen Gilchrist (fiction)
83) The Round House- Louise Erdrich (fiction)
82) Song Hunter - Sally Prue (fiction)
81) 7 Poets, UEA Creative Writing Anthology 2013 (poetry)
80) Finding Caruso - Kim Barnes (fiction)
79) Maggot Moon - Sally Gardner (fiction)
78) Twelve Slanted Poems for Christmas - edited by Helen Ivory and Kate Birch (poetry)
77) The Stone Thrower - Adam Marek (fiction, short stories)
76) This Afternoon and I - Sarah Roby (poetry)
75) The Norfolk Mystery - Ian Sansom (fiction)
74) A Virtual Love - Andrew Blackman (fiction)
73) Standing in Another Man's Grave - Ian Rankin (fiction)
72) Mateship With Birds - Carrie Tiffany (fiction)
71) Running the Rift - Naomi Benaron (fiction)
70) What I saw - Laura Scott (poetry)
69) Familiar - J. Robert Lennon (fiction)
68) The Mind's Eye - Hakan Nesser (fiction)
67) Burning Man - Alan Russell (fiction)
66) Borkmann's Point - Hakan Nesser (fiction)
65) All the Birds Singing - Evie Wyld (fiction)
64) The Havocs - Jacob Polley (poetry)
63) Daybreak - Viktor Arnar Ingolfsson (fiction)
62) Why be Happy When You Could be Normal - Jeanette Winterson (non fiction)
61) Godforsaken Idaho - Shawn Vestal (fiction, short stories)
60) Apple Tree Yard - Louise Doughty (fiction)
59) The Detective's Daughter - Lesley Thomson (fiction)
58) Quesadillas by Juan Pablo Villalobos (fiction)
57) Homesick for the Earth, Poems by Jules Spervielle with versions by Moniza Alvi (poetry, re-read)
56) Kei Miller -A Light Song of Light (poetry, re-read)
55) Black Vodka - Deborah Levy (fiction, short stories)
54) A Map of Nowhere - Martin Bannister ( fiction)
53) Reservation Road - John Burnham Schwartz (fiction)
52) The Crumb Road - Maitreyabandhu ( poetry)
52) High Performance - Luke Wright (poetry)
51) The Son of a Shoemaker - Linda Black ( poetry)
50) One Step too Far - Tina Seskis (fiction)
49) The Dinner - Herman Koch (fiction)
48) The Falling Sky - Pippa Goldschmidt (fiction)
47) The Most Beautiful Thing - Satya Robyn (fiction)
46) Rites - Sophie Coulombeau (fiction)
45) Property Of - Alice Hoffman (fiction)
44) The Wildflowers of Baltimore - Rob Roensch (fiction, short stories)
43) Absolution - Patrick Flannery (fiction)
42) Autobiography of Red - Anne Carson (poetry)
41) Broadcasting - Andrea Holland (poetry)
40) Cross Bones - Kathy Reichs (fiction)
39) Flash and Bones - Kathy Reichs (fiction)
38) Waiting for Bluebeard - Helen Ivory (poetry)
37) The Blue Bedspread - Raj Kamal Jha (fiction)
36) Raptors - Toon Tellegen (poetry)
36) Hills of Doors - Robin Robertson (poetry)
35) Faber new Poets 1 - Katherine Benson (poetry)
34) The Doll Princess - Tom Benn (fiction)
33) This is How to Lose Her - Junot Diaz (fiction)
32) Behind the Beautiful Forevers - Katherine Boo (non fiction)
31) Furious Resonance - Terry Jones (poetry)
30) Speaking Without Tongues - Jane Monson (poetry)
29) Bevel - William Letford (poetry)
28) The Other Side of the Bridge - Geraldine Green (poetry)
27) The Overhaul - Kathleen Jamie (poetry)
26) Stalker - Lucy Hamilton (poetry)
25) The Wigbox; New and Selected Poems - Dorothy Nimmo (poetry)
24) Once You Break a Knuckle - D.W. Wilson (fiction, short stories)
23) This isn't the Sort of Thing That Happens to Someone Like You - Jon Mcgregor (fiction, short stories)
22) Grace - Esther Morgan (poetry, re-read)
21) Contemporary American Poetry - eds A. Poulin Jr & Michael Waters (poetry)
20) The Silence Living in Houses - Esther Morgan (poetry)
19) Chick - Hannah Lowe (poetry)
18) Peacock Luggage - Moniza Alvi and Peter Daniels (poetry)
17) The Hungry Ghost Festival - Jen Campbell (poetry)
16) How the Stone Found its Voice - Moniza Alvi (poetry)
15) Faber New Poets 1 - Fiona Benson (poetry)
14) Stag's Leap - Sharon Olds (poetry)
13) Place - Jorie Graham (poetry)
12) Infinite Sky - C.J. Flood (fiction)
11) Dear Editor - Amy Newman (poetry)
10) Shelter - Jayne Anne Philips (fiction)
9) Self Portrait in the Dark - Colette Bryce (poetry)
8) The Bridle - Meryl Pugh (poetry)
7) Claiming Breath - Diane Glancy (poetry)
6) Jump Bad - A New Chicago Anthology (poetry and prose)
5) Night Journey - Richard Lambert (poetry)
4) The Man from Beijing - Henning Mankell (fiction)l
3) The Thing About Joe Sullivan - Roy Fisher (poetry)
2) Adventures With My Horse - Penelope Shuttle (poetry)
1) Carrying My Wife - Moniza Alvi (poetry, re-read)